Erica

Just as I finished getting ready for tonight, I found the most peculiar looking dice by the foot of my bed. I have no idea what they belong to! None of the board games that I currently own, that's for sure. Since it is likely I'll forget to ask, I'll post it here.



Paige, what are these?

I had only suggested it off-handedly, but the idea of hitting Envy tonight for a dirty martini a la Paige and good music sounds like a stress-free way to spend my night.

I've been looking for an excuse to wear my new stilettos. ;-)

Now, as a movie enthusiast, I don't normally take the time to write about the television I watch, but I cannot stay silent on this matter.

Marc Cherry, creator of Desperate Housewives, what on earth were you thinking? Were you thinking at all?

I am absolutely shocked by the way last episode of the season ended. After having quite a season filled with more secrets, lies and natural disasters than ever before, I thought that the final moments would have been just as nail-biting as previous seasons before. After all, I had been waiting to see what kind of cliffhanger we would be presented after season three's Edie fiasco.

Instead, we are given a glimpse at "Five Years Later"? Really?

I cannot express how... bewildered I am. I'm almost hoping that it is nothing more than a joke. The glimpse into Bree's and Katherine's futures are the easiest to accept, as they are the most likely. Lynette's future with delinquent children is also somewhat forseeable. I draw the line at Gabrielle's sudden decision to adopt not one, but two children after the emotional rollercoaster of adopting the first time around.

I will not even begin to discuss how ridiculous Susan's future is, considering she spent years chasing after a plumber. Honestly.

The writers would have been wise to leave out this glimpse into the future. :-\

In celebration of the success of the Stevenson account, I allowed myself to splurge a little with a mini-shopping spree. I hit quite a few stores I normally pass by, as this was a special occasion; my treat to myself. :-)

Well tonight... I came home and slipped into a new satin slip that I purchased today. It feels absolutely wonderful, and I must say that it looks great.

I took a picture of myself in it only moments ago and sent it to Paige. While she is at work, no less! I am devious!

Still waiting for her reaction to the picture. ;-)

I have been so caught up in the romantic side of life these days that the presentation for the Stevenson account this morning nearly slipped my mind. I happened to remember it last night just before closing my eyes.

Amidst the last minute changes and rehearsing my presentation with the help of a cup of Foldgers, I managed to catch a generous three hours of sleep, which is more than I anticipated, sadly enough.

(I've discovered that bags under the eyes, no matter how dark they may be, virtually disappear after three layers of my foundation. I am embarrassed that I hold such knowledge.)

The presentation went without a hitch, and Mr. Stevenson was really impressed by what we had to offer him. I cannot tell you how great it felt to finally breathe after months of preparing this account. Finally, everything is smoothe sailing from now on.

I only hope I am given a short break before they saddle me with another large account, at least until I can catch up on lost sleep!

This morning my mother called me and thanked me for the arrangement I had delivered to her for Mother's Day. (I am in love with the idea behind that website!) She says she's having a hard time keeping dad and Heather away from it, and she absolutely loved it. On little holidays like these I always feel a twinge of guilt for having left the nest, but I'm glad I can still spoil her from afar.

I felt like going for a walk, and after talking with Paige we agreed to go together. Instead, we ended up laying on a blanket in the middle of the park and watching the clouds go by and pointing out the shapes that the clouds made.

At one point, she extended her hand up to point at a cloud, at which point I took her hand in mine, interlocked our fingers, and moved over her to give her a long, gentle kiss. I could tell that I had caught her off-guard and she became quite flustered and giggly. It was adorable. I kissed her forehead we continued to watch the sky.

Dana called me old fashioned for being so happy just laying in the park with Paige, but I told Dana that she is just jealous she hasn't thought to offer Elle to do the same. I don't think she found my humor in that very funny!

Dana had sent me a text message just yesterday. In it, she asked me how I "put up with" mine and Paige's demanding schedules.

It's not difficult. I think of the evenings we spend together when our energy is spent and we come back to my place and just lay together on the sofa or on my bed. She will lay her small body against mine and I will play with the ends of her short hair as we talk about the day or people we've met. Sometimes we'll make wishful plans or even debate who is a better actor between Clint Eastwood and John Wayne.

She always smells of sandwiches and I of coffee beans, and even though we aren't always at our most energetic or even interesting, we don't always have to be. Just being with each other in the moments we can is enough.

Call me sentimental, but I could not forget what this day marked. I had it circled on my desk calendar as a constant reminder. (As if I needed reminding!)

I have never been the one to send gifts, but I couldn't help myself. Something inside told me to just go for it. Flowers seemed conventional, but I wasn't sure if that was what I should send Paige. A coworker suggested something else, and I was a bit skeptical at first, but I fell in love with the images I saw. I believe it was the little pineapple hearts that sold me.

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They're delivering it to the shop around noon, and I'm hoping to make it down there in time to see her reaction. I hope she likes it!

Yesterday was quite... interesting, to say the very least.

I had been preparing myself coffee and, after noticing quite enough leftover, I thought that I would bring some to Ashley. (She is the easiest to make coffee for, as she likes it black.) It had been a rather slow day in the office, and I was looking forward to some idle conversation.

To my utter surprise, I walked in at precisely the same moment Ashley was having her way upon her desk with another woman.

I nearly dropped the coffee to the floor.

There is no doubt in my mind the pair was more thoroughly horrified than I was, but it was still rather embarassing. I quickly turned away from them, and Ashley asked that I keep it a secret. Obviously I would not spread tales of something like this! Once it was safe to look, I offered her the coffee, but I could not bear to bring my eyes to hers, mostly because they were fixed upon a bra strewn haphazardly across her desk. I quickly excused myself from the already awkward situation as politely as I could.

It isn't that I am upset she was with another woman. I've long since put away past feelings of her, and I am quite honestly the happiest I have ever been with regards to a relationship. (I do so cherish Paige!)

I did understand the situation, as I myself had been in quite the same predicament before. Still, it is rather awkward, considering who the girl she was with is. That little incident had certainly thrown me off for the remainder of the afternoon!

I just hope I will be able to look Ashley in the eyes again soon.

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Perhaps I should elaborate a little more on my last entry...

...but everytime I try I just get so giddy that I cannot find the words! She takes my breath away, and now she does so with kisses.

Kisses!

It truly does feel like a dream, perhaps because I have been dreaming about being with her for so long now. I'll pinch myself in her presence just to make sure. I never want to wake up from this dream of her and I.

Okay, so it's probably too soon to be acting so completely enthralled by her, but I just cannot help myself. I am far too excited. We're going to see each other again this evening. I feel like a teenager all over again.

Oh my! This entry is so incredibly silly!

Last night I had a dream that Paige came by my house. I welcomed her in, and we sat on the couch just drinking Yoo Hoo and talking together into the night. And once we were through talking, we kissed rather passionately, the smell of her cologne causing me to feel light-headed as I became so completely enamored by her...

Oh wait, that wasn't a dream. IT REALLY HAPPENED!! :-D

It's such a wonderful feeling, being back in my old hometown.

This morning seemed to drag on, perhaps because I was so tired from the night before. (It was still worth it to see Paige before my trip!) I did have her company once again, only in the form of text messages we exchanged as I waited for my flight. She told me that I am good luck. Why does this woman have a knack for making me blush!

When I arrived at JFK airport my family was waiting for me with a banner that said, "Welcome home!" Both of my sisters managed to pry themselves away from their social lives to come see me. Zoe I could understand, but I made sure to give Heather a hard time for complaining about the things she had to do. It's good to see that after so long, some things never change.

Here I thought we were going to enjoy a nice, quiet dinner at home, but they surprised me by taking me over to Ellen's Stardust Diner. While I would have preferred a more intimate setting, it was hilarious when the waiters pulled Zoe into one of their routines. I'll have to share the pictures later!

I'm definitely going to see who is still around the neighborhood and try to go out this weekend, at least once.

Already I miss my baby. I think I'll use that as an excuse to call Paige and maybe chat for a little while. ;-)

I know that I should be sleeping as I travel in the morning, but I am far too excited!

Earlier I simply called Paige because I wanted to iron out the details of her sitting for Allie now that she is well again. I found it a little cute that we happened to be watching the same program on TV while we spoke on the phone. A little into the conversation, I had offered to drop off a key to my apartment on my way to the airport when she suddenly suggested coming over to my apartment that very moment. How could I say no?

When she finally came over, I realized just exactly what I was wearing! I hope she didn't think that I was trying to expose myself in any way because the darned robe I was wearing over my satin nightgown kept coming undone. I think I uninentionally gave her a few peeks beneath the robe! She did not seem put off at all, so perhaps I did not scare her away. I just hope she doesn't think of me as some sort of floozy who shows off her goods to just anyone. :-(

I felt embarassed that all I had to offer her was Yoo Hoo, but she seemed rather excited at my offering it to her! I must admit that she looked simply adorable in her little boy clothes, sipping away at a milkbox. (I don't care if the others think she looks like a boy. I think that the look suits her just fine.)

At the end of her visit, I gave her a hug. She felt so nice in my arms that I really did not want to let go of her. Her hair smelled like a fruit cup and she just felt so soft.

Perhaps I should have held onto her because she tripped over the rug shortly after! I must make a note to move it somewhere else.

We said our goodbyes with one last hug before she left. I am still reeling from just having her in my home again. I hope that there are many, many more visits to come!

She's back!

While I have been locked away in my office working on the Stevenson report, it seems the rest of the office remembered to break for lunch. I was hoping to catch a late lunch in order to get my work done, but now I am having trouble focusing!

Lynette said that she and Ashley had gone to the sandwich shop for lunch, and while they were there they saw Paige back at work and looking quite energetic. I am glad! Paige's cousin was over to visit her, so she must have done something to get her back to good health.

Now my thoughts are distracted from work! Perhaps I should break and head downstairs. I can finish this report later. ;-)

Since she is still out sick, I have been sending Paige text messages every so often. At first I was wondering if I was being a bit of a pest, but she seemed to enjoy our exchanging of messages. I admit that one was a forward from Dana, but I do believe she liked it! Digital roses rarely fail. @}--`--

I want to ask her out somewhere once she is fully well. I am both excited and very nervous!

For now, I leave for New York on Friday! My parents have already agreed to take the day off to greet me at the airport, and my sisters have promised to pencil me in their schedules. I am very excited to be going home, even if it is just for the weekend! As much as I would love to roam the city, family comes first during this visit. Perhaps I can incorporate the two.

Ah! So much excitement!

I hope this is not my active imagination running wild on me again...

Saturday was so amazing, with all of the text messages and picture exchanging, and I was looking forward to seeing Paige today.

I went to the sandwich shop, and she's out sick! Did I scare her away? I hope she is just sick and not avoiding me. I think I am just being a pessimist. I must think positively. There is always tomorrow!

I called my family this morning to wish them all a Happy Easter. I asked if they were busy celebrating with egg dying and preparing food, but to my surprise they said that they had put off all plans until next week when I will be visiting. How sweet! Although I won't be there for them today, we will still be celebrating Easter together as a family.

I had such a great sleep last night, probably the best I have had in a while.

On a whim I had decided to text message Paige (I know I should avoid using names but... after last night I cannot keep calling her "sandwich girl"). What resulted was nearly an hour of exchanging text messages back and forth... and picture messages, too! Ahh! I asked her to take a picture of her work uniform. She has a second job on the weekends, but I don't know what it is and I would hate to pry. She looked incredible. In return, she wanted a picture of me! I took a silly picture of myself in my lounge clothing, but somehow... I ended up sending her a picture of myself in lingerie. Oh my god!!! She liked it! And she sent me an extremely sexy picture of herself with her shirt unbuttoned and tie loosened in exchange. It was the best night ever. I couldn't stop thinking about it as I fell asleep.

I know that I was unsure of this before, but I have a strong confidence boost now. I think she is interested in me, too. :-D

Today was a fairly lazy Saturday, which I was very much grateful for. I curled up in the chair by the window with a book and just read. So comfortable I was that I even began dozing off!

Something woke me, though. My phone began to ring, but I didn't recognize who the caller was. They hung up on me, but I immediately called them back to find out who it was. It turned out to be the sandwich girl!

Now, I had just been dozing off when she'd called, so I admit that I wasn't the most alert and I wasn't much of a conversationalist. I tried to keep the conversation flowing, but I could tell we were both a little awkward during this first phone call. I was so caught off-guard I could hardly think of anything except to babble on about New York more, which I am sure she's sick of hearing about by now. :-O

Though it was short, I was really glad she'd decided to call me. I hope that she'll surprise me with many more, and hopefully we will have more to talk about!

And I am very excited... now I have her phone number saved on my phone!

First, I have finally found a sitter for Allie for when I will be flying home next weekend. Next weekend!!

Second, that sitter is the sandwich girl!! Ah!

I had just gotten off of work and decided to pay her a visit. She was busy cleaning and closing the store, but she made conversation with me anyway, which I found very nice of her. We chatted, and the subject of Easter came up. I mentioned my trip but that I needed a sitter for Allie, and I don't know what came over me, but I asked her! I was so nervous! I thought for sure that I had crossed some unspoken line.

She obviously agreed, and I couldn't help myself... I hugged her! The feeling was amazing. I knew that she was shorter than I, but the height difference was even more obvious standing so closely to her. Her body felt so soft, and I do believe I picked up the slight scent of a perfume or body spray beneath the smell of onions and sandwich meat. My hands were on her back as I embraced her, and I do believe I could feel her heart pounding. Was she nervous? I hope she wasn't uncomfortable with my sudden display of gratitude.

As if that wasn't bold enough, I also gave her my cell phone number! I must admit, she seemed to shy away afterward, so I hope I am not jumping the gun or anything by trying to make so many bold moves in one encounter.

As I was leaving her store, I thought I had heard her say something. It was quite, almost muttered. My ears were playing tricks on me, I realize. It sounded as if she had said, "You're hot," but I realize that my active imagination must have come up with that one!

This has been a most exciting day. I hope she calls. :-)